catching up

I haven't post in long... No particular reasons, just a regular life, with lots to do!
I just had 2 whole days off :) Happy memorial day everyone!!

I love grilling! Mr L. does grilled asparagus, which are divine. He is awesome at grilling anything (meat, veggies, even polenta!)

My cycle should be over now, so I took a pregnancy test this morning: negative :(
Oh well it's just our first real trying...
Also in the last ccl magazine there was an article about "cycle variants".
here are some parts of the article that I found interesting:
" It is very tempting for young women to presume they will experience "text-book" fertility cycles. It only stands to reason : they are young and in the prime of their fertility [...] The ideal NFP chart, however is often not experienced.[...] Dr Brown's finding have led him to conclude that many cycle irregularities experienced by young women should be considered normal. [...]" Cycle variants should not be considered as abnormal; they are normal response to the environment to ensure that pregnancy does not occur under very unfavorable conditions for the mother and fetus." ...[...] cycle varients occuring in a young woman's cycle are nature wake-up calls; something is out of order within the woman's life: too much stress, too little nutritious food, too much or too little excersice, too little sleep etc."

I thought it was really interesting to read that on my second 38+ days cycle in a row...
I finally accepted that hubby is right and I put too much pressure on myself at work. The management is very unclear and there are many contradictory demands every week or more often. This and my crazy hours ( 30 hours over 6 days, mainly on saturdays and evenings..) make sense: I'm indeed under some stress.

This week I also learned something important. I learned that saying " I'm sorry" is actually useful. For some weird reason I always saw the "forgive me " thing as something to do to make yourself feel better: I recognise I hurt you, I feel bad to have you feel this way, I won't do it again...
Until last week when my co-worker apologized to me, and I felt better. :) It was a really new experience for me (I'm 25!!!).
I was resentful because of some small things that happened recently (mainly a lack of communication on schedules and a lack of recognition) and I mentioned the dysfunctions to her, and she minimized it, which made me feel even more resentful.. Then it was my day off, and got over it at some point. But when I came to work the following morning, my coworker came to me and said " Oh I'm glad you're here, I wanted to tell you I'm sorry for what happened the other day, I wasn't aware you didn't know you would be alone..." or something like that. I felt like 200 lbs flying off me :)

Apologies feel good sometimes. :) I'm glad I now understand how it works both ways..